Ill try to slowly increase to 450-600mg over the next weeks/months. This is probably not a perfect protocol but it seems good/safe enough based on the little research i have done.
1. If you insist on doing this, by all means make sure you take the B1 with a potent B-complex and at least 200mg of elemental magnesium, from a form that is bioavailable.
Also be on the watch for symptoms or paradoxical reactions when you increase the dose.
Please do not increase benfo dosage until you are well and truly stable.
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2. How much Benfotiamine are you taking right now, today?
3.
- Deep sense of anxiety that i can feel in my chest is the most annoying one, its like a direct antidote to my willpower/mental strength
- Perhaps the benfotiamine is doing its paradoxical reaction? I dont know
That could be a paradoxical reaction, could also be low electrolytes, notably potassium.
The foods you mention don't have much potassium. Is it possible to focus on coconut water, perhaps with added honey?
Bananas carry fiber that can inactivate a fair amount of the potassium iirc.
4. If you can get in the habit of combining food-> 20min buteyko, I think that will help you mitigate stress and feel better in general. It seems so simple, but it can make a gigantic difference. I for one can not at all tolerate T3 or caffeine, without combining it with 20min buteyko right after.
It has also saved me from insomnia so many times it's ridiculous.
There are even legends of people stopping a heart attack with it. Can also make men last longer in bed. It's breathwork with "what the hell" effects like kettlebell training.
5.
I really wish i could know what happened to me. The food, okay. But what the fuck kind of reaction is that to water after a dry fast?
I am almost certain it was thiamine depletion, combined with electrolyte depletion and borderline refeeding syndrome.
Mainly thiamine tho. If it was only refeeding, food and water would work. This is tested thoroughly and known and formulated into the NICE guidelines that ER's in hospitals would use.
If it was only electrolytes, your refeed should have also worked.
Noting that it took less than 2 minutes (!) for symptoms to start after a sip of water, it can not have been stomach or metabolism, as the gut takes at least 5 minutes to empty and absorb water contents.
Why does that indicate B1? B1 is needed for the brain to produce acetylCOA, that is needed for the brain to use the vagus nerve to "talk" to the stomach and organs. Deplete B1, mystery gut issues like gastroparesis, IBS etc are known to be a consequence, and can sometimes be remedied with B1 repletion (according to Overton and clinical experience).
That is not a 100% scientifically certain diagnosis. Closest you could get was a blood draw right after the symptoms started.
Seeing that wont happen now, this is the best tentative diagnosis you can get.
Either way, progress forward remains the same. Slow and steady refeed and repletion, diminish stress and don't shoot yourself in the foot by going too fast.
I know it really sucks to have to go this slow, and that it can be maddening to have symptoms go 2 steps forward, 1 step back.
Don't let yourself believe you are regressing. Fine tuning is what's happening. You are improving everyday, steadily trending upwards.
You quite frankly appeared to be on the verge of going off a cliff and dying from "water allergy", now you can eat and progress.
Stay the course, Falk. You have got this. And look into potassium sources.